Pretty In Pink

I Miss You Mom

Tomorrow will be four years to the date since my mom died. It seems like that horrible day was a lifetime ago, but like yesterday all at the same time. Does that sound crazy? This anniversary of her death has been the hardest yet. I miss her terribly. Tears just run down my face as I type this. I know it has been so hard because I now have two babies that do not have both grandmothers. I am not necessarily sad for her because I know she is no longer in pain and is cancer free with our Lord. I am sad for my children because they will never know how truly loved they would have been by their grandmother. She would have been a wonderful grandmother. It also has hit me harder since I have a daughter of my own now. For those of you who don't know Janna Lynn is named after my mom (Jan) and my gradmother (mom's mom - Anna) They are two of the strongest women I have ever met and I hope my little girl will inherit their strength, wisdom, and beauty. I couldn't imagine having to leave my little girl, like she had to leave me. I know I will see her again someday, but days like today are just down right painful without her.

Janna Lynn and her breast cancer bear

You Know You're a Mommy of Two under the Age of Two When....

- You suprisingly have the ability to nurse the baby and change the other child's diaper at the same time. (Yes, I did do this yesterday, and I was quite impressed with myself.) :)
- You think getting 2 consecutive hours of sleep is a lot.
- You are lucky to get a shower before your husband gets home from work.
- You have to try and explain to the older child why the baby can touch "the boob" and he can't. (Sorry for the mental picture) And yes, Landen only can speak about 5 words and unfortunately "boob" is one of them.
- You look in the mirror and don't recognize yourself. Did this yesterday. Is that really me behind the greasy hair, the dark circles, spit up, and oh yes, snot? YIKES! And I have established that I really don't look good without makeup, especially mascara.
- You are counting down the seconds until your husband gets home from work, not because you can't wait to see him, but because your tired of being out numbered and you need someone to take a child!! Sorry honey, I do love seeing your handsome face when you come home, but not as much as your helpfulness at this point. :)
- You let your older child watch their favorite movies over and over again because it's easier than playing while trying to get laundry, dinner, etc. done at the same time. GUILTY! It's shameful, I know.
- You totally zone out on a complete conversation with someone (mainly, Luke..again sorry honey) due to sleep deprivation.
- You haven't even thought about sending out Thank You notes for all the cute outfits you've received from family and loved ones. Sorry if you are one of those people. I really appreciate all that everyone has done for us and they will get out the first chance I get, which at this point may be when Janna Lynn graduates. :)
- You feel blessed beyond words despite all the craziness that occurs in a day. This month has been difficult getting used to being a mommy of two, but it has also been the best month of my life. My life is truly wonderful. I have my amazing husband, my two beautiful children, and my faith in our Maker, Jesus Christ, which grows stronger each and everyday. Life is truly good despite the lack of sleep and craziness that comes with raising kids.

Landen Wearing Daddy's Flight Helmet

GP Came to Visit

Grandpa Phil came to visit us last week. We had a great visit and were all sad when we had to see him go. While he was here we went to the Thunder Tower Harley store in Columbia, were GP found a Fat Boy with a really cool costumized paint job. He just couldn't resist getting it. So when you see him tell him congrats on his awesome bike. And if anyone is interested he now has his old 2003 Fat Boy for sale. :)

Janna Lynn got to sit on her first Fat Boy with her grandpa. :)