I Miss You Mom

Tomorrow will be four years to the date since my mom died. It seems like that horrible day was a lifetime ago, but like yesterday all at the same time. Does that sound crazy? This anniversary of her death has been the hardest yet. I miss her terribly. Tears just run down my face as I type this. I know it has been so hard because I now have two babies that do not have both grandmothers. I am not necessarily sad for her because I know she is no longer in pain and is cancer free with our Lord. I am sad for my children because they will never know how truly loved they would have been by their grandmother. She would have been a wonderful grandmother. It also has hit me harder since I have a daughter of my own now. For those of you who don't know Janna Lynn is named after my mom (Jan) and my gradmother (mom's mom - Anna) They are two of the strongest women I have ever met and I hope my little girl will inherit their strength, wisdom, and beauty. I couldn't imagine having to leave my little girl, like she had to leave me. I know I will see her again someday, but days like today are just down right painful without her.

Janna Lynn and her breast cancer bear